22 Kislev 5775

10:50 PST

Going to try to start using Jewish calendar. Talked to [Ryan] about how I had ordered Names of God translation and he alerted me to ISR which I immediately ordered. Waiting on service to begin; perhaps 10 people gathered although most were on time today!

[Ryan] prayer: Jeremiah 11:1-5, 12:17, John 21:12-19

1 John 3:18, 4:20

Jeremiah 17:5-10

[Pastor]: Psalm 138

John 17

15:45 PST

I wanted to wait until I had a more accurate – if that is the word – translation of the scriptures before I dove into this topic, but I feel the need to write my thoughts.

I’ve sampled some of organized Christianity for a few years now and I see two major issues that do not sit right with me. The first is that people go on and on about “knowing the LORD” and “knowing Jesus” but they neither know the Father’s nor the Son’s name! The second issue has to do with our performance of love.

I could elaborate on the name but people may miss the point. As regards love, Yeshua said the world would know his disciples by the love they have for each other. The apostle “John” wrote that if we cannot love the brother whom we we see, how can we love the creator who we cannot? Moreover he admonished the called out ones to love not in word or tongue but in deed and action.

[Psalms 51:16-17, James 1:21-27, 1 John 3:18, Luke 6:46-49]

David writes that YHWH does not desire sacrifice nor burnt offering. James writes about the folly of hearing and not doing. Yeshua himself laments how readily people will call him “Lord, Lord” and yet do not do the things that he says.

Many will tell you many things about how to “get spiritual.” While you sometimes might find a scriptural example of a particular ritual, you’d be hard pressed to find any Biblical character teaching it as a rule. Other than… do the Word!

A New Beginning

La Mesa, CA

It is time for change. For a [half] year I’ve been wasting my life on video games and apathy. I am planning to leave everything on 1/1/2015 and tour the U.S. via train. I hope to keep a journal but also write my novel.

Today I must clean up my apartment, sort through things, [&] gather essentials. Listening to some Mozart for the first time. I will be writing everything by hand, I will not have a laptop or anything, and I will be staying in hostels.

I have not been doing my part regarding spiritual disciplines. I need to return to the habit of studying the scriptures, especially prayer. I need to eliminate the poison of lustful thinking.

[Pastor] thinks my journey should be called “In Search of All Good” or something. I don’t particularly agree. [I’m] just a Vagrant. My handwriting is awful and embarrassing to look at. Want to improve it – low priority.

Been procrastinating on cleaning. Time to eat and get to work.

14:36 PM PST

Did some sorting. Have a LOT of clothes and papers. Not much else. Found my birth certificate, will apply for passport tomorrow.

Realizing the list of people I want to see is short. Or can see, rather. Granted, I more want to write than I do visit.